Day 3.

The fact that I’m writing today’s update at 8pm should give you an idea of how the day went.

It’s been challenging today. I woke up tired. Like really tired. A deep exhaustion that I couldn’t shake.

I ended up going back to bed after my mediation class, with full intentions of simply resting my eyes…3 cups of coffee and an 2 hours later, I made it to the shower.

Needless to say I was a couple hours late for work…luckily I’m not micromanaged and have that freedom. But the real problem was I just couldn’t get my mojo. I could feel myself sinking. I kept pulling out life jackets (practices I have heard or tried these last couple of days) but none fit.

In complete desperation I finally just surrendered and accepted the come down.

I’ve been running full steam in excitement (school kid rush) – and I started school – for real.

Eventually I got in my car, took a drive, and listened to some music. Something I NEVER do. It helped, but it wasn’t the cure.

Finished some paperwork and packed my stuff to head hone- I get in the car and as I turn my head I see the most amazing and beautiful sunset. I get out of my car (not realizing I leave it running with the door wide open with my crap on the seat…

I run into a colleague who begins work talk. I put my hands up in a gesture that tells him to be hushed, and force him to walk with me.

We talked about family and then we just stood there and admired Gods canvas. I asked him if the new moon had anything to do with this and after a puzzled look I explained about my new journey. He chuckled and we carried on. (Go back to day 2 and the Trump supports) 😂

I get to my car and receive a text message thanking me for forcing him to stop and smell the roses.

It was all well. Even if it wasn’t. I was present with my fatigue and accepted it. All I had to do was not do anything until it passed.

I guess it’s called a journey for a reason. It’s not a cure. It’s not an easy fix. It’s a practice. There will be good days and difficult days.

I’m committed tho. And for today, that’s all that matters.

But really- does the moon impact the sunset?! I’m really curious.

Goodnight, Michelle. I love you. ❤️

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